I have to empty my cup.
For the past few days, I’ve been so stressed. It’s mainly because of council work, homeworks, quizzes and my characteristic of procrastinating things. I think I have this mentality that I could just accomplish things right away. Obviously, it’s not that easy.
I don’t know what’s been going on with me. Maybe because I’ve been jealous of my other friends who always get what they want and I’m just the person there in the corner, just waiting for them to tell me. I don’t know. I think I just feel so empty because I don’t know what I want.
Now, ask yourself. What do you want? Aside from all those material things. I think I’m craving for something that isn’t tangible. Emotion, Thoughts, Effort. I think I need that.This empty feeling in me keeps bugging my system. I become all bipolar and crap. It isn’t healthy. Having mood swings even without your Japan flag is just weird. Ironically, I’m telling you that having mood swings is just horrible and I have them. I don’t know.
I feel so undecided. I don’t know what I want. I don’t know what my goals are. I don’t know why I am so depressed. I’ve been so uninspired for the passed month already. Thinking positive is just temporary. After a while, it’ll just fade away.
It sucks doesn’t it? Maybe, all I need is to empty my cup. Not literally. Jeez. I think my brain is filled with so much emotion. It doesn’t have enough capacity to grasp on everything I should feel. I try to let go, but then not everything goes away. There’s this part of me that still dwells on the past. I don’t know how to get over. My brain is just overflowing with too much things. I can’t handle it.
I don’t know how to let go. It’s hard.I just need to empty my cup.
